Selfish

 

I've been having all of these feelings lately:

 "I'm not good enough.", "I'm not doing enough." "I'm disappointing people." 

 

Staying busy has been my life for a while, but this year it's been different, harder, more consuming.  I changed jobs, I started school again, I met an Amazing Man and it's been an Awesome adventure, but I've had to sacrifice a lot of things that I used to enjoy doing: hanging out with friends, going out randomly during the week to hang out, spending time with my family.  I've gone 3 months without hanging out with my bestie, I've been too busy to help friends out..... So I guess that makes me Selfish right?

 

 

Welcome to my Schedule:

 

5:45am:  Get up and start getting ready...Make coffee

 

6:20:  Hit the road for the 40 minute drive it takes me to get to school

 

7:05 - 2:30 :  Get to school, sign in, and set up for clients for the day if any, work on workbooks and other tasks

 

2:45:  Hit the road for the 40 minute drive back to town... sometimes getting stuck behind the slowest tractors ever....

 

3:45 Get to work early to change clothes and prepare for work mode.

 

4:00 - 9:30 or 10: Clock in and get to work, serve customer, wait tables, bus tables, closing procedures.

 

9:30 or 10:00: Drive home.

 

10:15 - 11:00:  Wind down, take a shower and go to bed.....

 

That is my Monday - Thursday schedule

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm lucky if I get Friday off completely and then I usually work Saturday night and Sundays are my main day off in which sometimes I clean, do laundry, or if I just want to do "me" stuff...

 

I don't really get that much free time, but when I do I want to either work on research for projects, work on projects, go on a daytrip out of town before my night shift, school work, read a book or watch a movie and if I'm lucky go swimming....

 

Those free moments are time for me to actually be alone.... I need those times.... because when I don't have those moments I get anxious....

 

Anxiety has been an issue for me for a while.... When you have so much on your plate with school, work, finances, lack of sleep, trying to figure out how it will all work out, how to be able to do all of the things that you love and be social at the same time.... the cracks begin to show... I get irritable easier, I want to sleep more, I don't want to go anywhere or do anything, getting emotional...and my stomach issues flare up.... It's a constant struggle for me.... sometimes I even have panic attacks...and only a select few people have ever seen those....

 

That's me being Selfish....

 

and I'm about to get even more Selfish..... I want to get back to making again and I'm focusing some of that free time on getting back into it again...  If you follow me on Instagram or Twitter or my Facebook.... I'm working on building my drawing skills back up, purchasing new supplies..... I'm getting ready for some creative opportunities.... Within the next few months I'll be doing some live demoing, making some new pieces: paintings, prints, drawings, etc...

 

 

So, while my social media may look like Sunshine, Rainbows, Beauty Products, Food, Delicious Beer etc.  I'm Human.... I'm flawed.... and I have issues.....just like everyone else...

 

Heather

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sole Society

Sole Society

Sole Society allows you to discover the latest trends, share your personal style, recommend shoes to friends, and follow the curated collections of top fashion insiders. Inside this box, you’ll find $25 off your first purchase! (Influenster.com)

In December, I received my Influenster Holdiay VoxBox for 2012.  One of the pieces sent for review was a Sole Society Coupon for $25 off of Your First Pair of Shoes.  At first, I was thinking "When am I going to use this?",  "I'm not really and online shoe shopper.", until I went to the site.

Sole Society is an interactive membership to some pretty amazing shoes.  They Design them, Manufacture them, and Deliver Straight to the members.    They cut out the middle man, you know the Retailers that jack up the prices of amazing shoes, so you end up having loads of debt and feel the need to sell a kidney.  The coolest part is the more you share what you buy and recommend to friends the more money that you can save.  Think with every recommendation and invite = FREE SHOES.

If you don't believe me...  Check out their site @ http://www.solesociety.com/

These are the shoes that I purchased....

This is Harper.   I've always loved the look of Oxford Shoes and the cutest part of these is that they are Leopard.   

I'm inspired by these shoes....For those that don't know.... I reconstruct clothing, among many other things, but I've come up with a few outfits that I want to dye, cut and reconstruct into awesomeness to wear with these amazing shoes.   

If you want tutorials, comment on my Facebook Page....and while your there....You might just want to hit the Like Button.

This is Celine.  Occasionally, I'm pretty girly when I'm not all Tomboy'd up with my T-shirt and Jeans.  I saw these and fell in love with them.  They are like the ballet flat, but with the added flare of a color blocked heel.  If you know me, you probably know that I love Vintage clothing.  I have Vintage slips, dresses, hats and accessories and these shoes have that feel.  I have the perfect dress to go with these girls and I can't wait to show you.

I was very impressed with the shipping.  It was here before I knew it and believe me,  I was waiting like Scott Pilgrim waiting for his Amazon Package.

The shoes are great quality, affordable, and Sole Society makes it fun through their interactive site.  

In Love with Sole Society,

Heather